Its Jaimie last week or so its hard for a young man to still live on life knowing that he is looking death in the face. I haven't really had a chance to spend time with Jaimie this past week as he has been in the hospital. I don't really know if its that I really don't want to see him like that, or the fact that he doesn't see him self like that. He puts a smile every day saying that he is completely excepting the fact of his own death. Saying that he lived a full life. I truly am not shore that if I am ready to cope with his death even if he is not dead yet. I still think of how in such a short amount of time he had jumped to fixing his life to barley having one. I thought that 6 weeks would last long but it has moved faster that you could ever imagine. Now with only a few days I look back to all the good times we had. If i only truly could save him and help him out. Jaimie and I have had lots of laughs and a lot more cries. In the end I still will be the one to shed more tears when I'm right next to him as he takes his last breath.
There is no good coming out of his lost I will be the only one that will care. His mother dose not want to deal with that fact that she is the main reason that her son is dieing. Since that age of 6-10 his mother beat him and told him that "he wasn't worth it that she never wanted to give birth to such a wast of life". As his father walked out of his life and he never got to know him.
I had took the time to talk to his mother and talk to her I had asked her why would she treat her son like that and all I really got out of her was "I barley remember his child hood I was drunk most the time and its all a blur." I then asked her is she thinks that he drinking is what influenced Jaimie to drink at such a young age and he words were clear "I drank to stop the pain so I don't blame him for doing the same thing." So I asked her what caused her to trow him out on the streets at the age of 10. She said "I only threw him out because he stole from me and I thought that he would come home later in the day" "So when you found out that he moved with your mother his grand mother why did you not asked for him back?" I had asked her. She said "By the time I found out is was a few years later and I thought him being with my mother was best for him." We had continued to talk about his life and i found out that he had a really shitty life. After we finished she told me to ask her son to for give her? I told her that's something she needs to do on her own. She still hasn't ask him and there's not much time life.
So I ask that anyone that id drinking weather it be under age of legal age please drink reasonably I really do not wish to lose another person to alcohol read more about Alcohol and Your Heath.
Till next time this is me telling you how he jumped from 6 months to 6 weeks.
